as always, so much to do...

      Nearly 5 months have passed, and I haven't managed to post.  Such is my crazy life raising my daughter, and trying to be a good stay@home momma.  oi!  I contemplate many posts of my personal philosophies and how they are manifest in my life (friendship & social dynamics mostly), but more important things like bathing and grocery shopping tend to take up that time.  Things are only going to get more hectic, as Faedra's mobility increases each day it would seem.  She notices more details about her home, so she has been getting her paws into my craft supplies. 
      I think the only person that is aware of this journal is my husband; this is a good thing, as I would like to keep most of what I say here to myself.  I am prone to being overly critical and/or mean when my expectations are not met.   Have had much discussion with Gypsy on this topic recently, and we tend to view expectations similarly.    I intend to go into this topic further in the near future.  I need to remember that when my thoughts swirl in my head, and feel my brain might pop.  Yeah, I think too much as well, but how can I deny this trait?  I try not to be so hard on myself, or take life's shittier bits not too seriously.  I think people would do well to think more about their actions and reactions in life.  They might find situations amongst friends and family might go a bit more smoothly.
       I should make a grand outline of all the topics I hope to cover in this blog.  I should be making Xmas cookies right now instead of typing away here...  I want to play with my dolls, too.  Like I said, so much to, and never enough time in which to do it all.

Ah... fresh blogging.

I just might shun most of my other internet haunts to focus on something more personal, so piss off LJ, gheyspace, and frakbook (never did embrace twatter)!!!  I don't need you, but I am still intrigued by how people use these platforms.  I started a blog on wordpress, but I never got past the concept.  "Dolldork" was going to be for my obsession with dolls, and I still might give it a go; however, having a baby really steals time from my selfish, shallow pursuits.  Is the internet not based on shallow pursuits?  Take the internet away from billions of people and what would happen?  Would it get ugly?  Would people realize that time spent elsewhere just might change the world for the better?  I'm not saying the internet is inherently evil or wasteful, but it seems to be an extension of the "all blow and no go" expression.  Hey, let's talk about it 'til we're blue in the face, but do anything about it?  Why, that would steal time from stalking people on frakbook! 

No, I know from my own meanderings on teh interwebz that people do use it to showcase things made, events planned, causes educated, political agendas brandished, and, most importantly, personal stories told.   I love the web because I see it as a way to look at the whole wide world in which I live.  It's like a window through which I can spy the things that fascinate me, move me, anger me, inspire me, and prompt me to DO something about it.  I must adjust my position from before and state the internet is a subjective experience, for it is what one makes of it.  Kinda like the lives we live!